Happy Saturday, friends! I'm so glad you're here to join in with us for this month's Share 4 Somethings, where we'll talk about some things we loved, some things we learned, some things that went well, and some things we let go of. I'll jump right in!
Something I loved
I loved spending last weekend with my friends from church and teenagers! It was a youth event at our church that I helped with. I co-led the group of ninth grade girls and had the best time. Graham was the added bonus that I got Saturday night, which made my weekend. I needed to be busy that weekend, and am so glad I had a full weekend of plans. I was exhausted by the end of the weekend, but it was worth it!
Something I learned
I learned a lot of things about myself this month, like that I am learning to love the puzzle of math and paying bills. I learned that I can continue to do things that nobody does for me anymore. This makes me feel strong and accomplished.
Something that went well
Honestly, life feels like it's settling down and that it's going well. It feels good to have this new, normal life; I've moved past everything and have forgiven who I've needed to forgive. I'm at a point where I'm just ready for this chapter of life to be closed so I can up to the next new one. I don't really ever get sad or mad anymore; there was one day last Friday (the 14th) that I had a moment of extreme grief. I'd had a nightmare the night before, and it just got me thinking about what life used to look like when that would happen. I don't know if you remember this about me, but I am a BABY when it comes to nightmares, and I get scared to go back to sleep. When that would happen, I'd curl up behind him and then go back to sleep, knowing that I was safe. I had a moment that morning of the 14th when I thought about that, and why I was so tired; it's because I couldn't sleep after the bad dream. I cried over the death of my marriage for the first time in months that day. And then I asked God to pull me together, got dressed up in an outfit that I felt great in, and I went about my day.
I reminded myself of what my shirt says: "I am chosen, not forsaken. I am who You say I am!" It ended up being a wonderful day and weekend despite a very sad start. Just keeping things real here in the blog world, friends.
Something I let go of
I feel like I said this last month, but I've let go of so many things I did for so long. I have become the person who throws her clothes in the floor of the closet when things don't look or feel right, who doesn't clean the kitchen for a day, who says whatever is on her mind. I don't hate any of it, honestly!
I'm excited to read your posts today! Thanks for linking up with me for this, friends. I'll see you back here Monday.
As I read your post this morning, Jennifer, the words that came to mind were resilient, faithful and strong! You should be so proud!
ReplyDelete"He maketh the storm a calm, so that the waves thereof are still." I love to see God working in your life and bringing you not only peace but joy in independence!
ReplyDeleteI often have nightmares and if my husband is traveling and not home I usually turn on a very old feel good movie. It helps relax me and often I am then able to fall back to sleep but I definitely need that mind shift before I can. I have definitely let go of always having a clean house. I think we're still mostly neat and not living like pigs but my standards have relaxed so much and I am not at all mad about that!
ReplyDeleteLetting go of those things is SO liberating. Sometimes I leave the kitchen too and craft or watch TV or just scroll social media and I have zero guilt.
ReplyDeleteI love seeing the happiness shining from your face in all those selfies. God is good and I can see Him working in your life.
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