Happy Saturday, friends! Today we're talking about the things we loved or disliked, accomplished, improved upon/needs improvement, and noticed this month. I'll jump in!
Loved/Disliked
I loved seeing my Noah last weekend and spending the weekend with him last week in Dallas.
Accomplished
I accomplished my first solo home project last week and got rid of a hutch to bring in this different one from my dad's house. I still love it every time I walk into the dining room, and it feels great knowing that I decluttered the things that had been stored inside the old one. I tossed all of the things that had chips/cracks in them, so I got rid of several coffee mugs/cups, and plates that I had.
Improved upon/Needs improvement
In some ways this month, I've improved upon my outlook and attitude. I'm trying more to see the good in everything, and when I'm feeling sorry for myself, I ask God to help me with my thoughts and to help me pull myself together. In other ways, though, my attitude still needs lots of improvement. I know it's normal to have all the emotions I'm having because of my life situation, but I hate feeling sad or angry. Given the choice between the two, I'll choose angry any day over feeling sad and weepy. He doesn't deserve the tears I've cried! And honestly, it's not tears over him, but over the dreams of what I thought my life would look like at this stage of life.
Noticed
I've noticed that the there is a slight hint of change in the color of the leaves in my neighborhood. And also, more leaves are on the ground now than last week! I love this time of year, and I'm thankful that no matter what I'm going through, some things will never change.
I'm excited to read your posts today! Thanks for reading my blog and for linking up with me today, friends. Love to all!
Jenn 🖤
So many great answers! You've had lots of wonderful things to love this month. I do agree that the roller coaster of feelings is totally normal but I can understand how you'd be annoyed by them and just want to be feeling more happy and light. I know you know it just takes time an you will get there!
ReplyDeleteThank you! Yes! I am ready for my dark cloud that hangs over me to dissipate. That's what I keep feeling like, especially as this week approaches. I always appreciate your encouragement, my friend. That means the world to me!
DeleteI sure think you accomplished a lot this month! So impressed by your attitude, your green dress, your joy that cannot be stolen!
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Thank you! This month felt good. I'm so glad to be able to say that!
DeleteI remember how hard it was emptying my parents' house after they both died in the same year. But like you, I did treasure the time spent with siblings as we cleared things out. We're lucky in that way; it doesn't always work out to be a good experience with family when the job is so emotionally fraught.
ReplyDeleteYou and your sister really favor! Glad you two got some sleepover time. I think many of us need to continue working on improving our attitudes to find the good in things. It's easy to be cynical, but it's not healthy for us. Go gentle with yourself as you continue to grieve.
You are so right! I did feel fortunate that it went the way that it did, because so many family don't act that way. Thank you for the sweet words of encouragement!
DeleteThis past month seems to be so much better for you, even though it was still full of ups and downs. You are making progress! I agree on the angry statement. Grieving the life we thought we would have is so true, but believing the story can still be good, it will just be different. I am right by you encouraging you to keep wearing that green dress and going forward! Love you friend!
ReplyDeleteIt was! I'm so glad to be able to say that. That's always a good reminder; any progress at all is good! Thank you, sweet friend! Love you!
DeleteThe weather change is very good. We've been in a drought, but have had lots of rain in the last day or so. Actually, felt good wearing a hoodie out this morning. I love the cabinet from your dad's home. Beautiful! I love that you had so much time with family and I also love Graham's house. Hope you have a great day!
ReplyDeleteYes! I wholeheartedly agree. We were in a drought as well until a few weeks ago. I was so thankful for the rain! Thank you for that!
DeleteCleaning out a house has so much potential for all the feelings and for some conflict, no matter the reason. But it's harder after a loved one passes away, I think. Glad you had some together time doing it and it sounds like everyone got along during the process which is a big, big deal! Love your dress and your positive and confident attitude, even as you allow yourself to grieve what might have been.
ReplyDeleteYes! You are so right. Thank you for that, friend!
DeleteSending love and hugs, it sounds like a big job cleaning your dad's house out but it looks like you had some great support and help.
ReplyDeleteThat green dress is fabulous and I am glad you had a great day in it!
It could have been so much worse, had my stepmom not taken most of what was there. I was so glad she did that! The hardest part after hers was the garage, but even that wasn't terrible. Thank you for that, my friend!
DeleteGlad you were able to see your son in Dallas. Looks like a great trip. I bought Sophie's book too and I'm looking forward to reading! Enjoy October. Praying for you in this new season.
ReplyDeleteThank you! It was so good to see him. I hope you enjoy it! I know I will as soon as I'm out of my funk with not being able to read right now. I greatly appreciate your prayers!
DeleteMy sweet friend I can hear your heart in your words and I'm praying so hard for you! I understand choosing anger over sadness. I have been working on so many emotional things this past few months too and I can feel that so much! I actually was talking about that this weekend, that I'm going to have to deal with this anger but I didn't want too because I felt like I could control anger- and not sadness. I'm so sorry!
ReplyDeleteBUT- you look amazing! Your dress is perfect, and it looks like your kids have the same wonderful taste as their Mama in their homes! I'm personally glad to see September go far far away lol... I hope that October is wonderful for you! Fall is amazing!
Thank you for all of this, Stacy! I am sorry that you've had a hard time lately as well, my friend. It's not easy! I am so glad to be seeing a counselor tomorrow; it can't come soon enough. I am so glad to say goodbye to September, and honestly the entire year. I'm also trying to enjoy the moments that I have, as well, so in some ways, I don't want it to go too quickly. I'm just ready for change, and healing, and freedom from my marriage. Fall IS amazing!
DeleteYou are allowed to feel all the feels and it is completely normal! I think you are rocking it all- I would be curled up in a corner- you amaze me every day XO
ReplyDeleteEnjoyed seeing all of the your great pictures and reading the answers to your prompts. You are in season of pain but your strength, love of family and faith really stand out to me.
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